05.03.04 12:37 pm

there is nothing worse than sitting with the fact that you've caused a lot of pain to someone that you care about.

nothing. worse.

i wish i could take it back. i should have never gone there.

the bottom line is that i am not perfect. i am not a professional therapist. i am going to make mistakes and do very stupid things.

and if you're near me enough, that could spill over onto you.

i didn't intentionally breach a trust. big deal if the motive was out of caring, the bottom line is how he feels. and right now, he feels as if i physically struck him.

i have no idea if he'll trust me after this.

i have a lot of talking to do.

and sitting. with this.

i suck sometimes.