03.06.05 11:20 pm

i just ended it with A. He was so incredibly wonderful about it all and we both cried and laughed and cried some more.

just thinking about how wonderful he was makes me want to love him more.

nothing. NOTHING hurts worse than hurting someone you love.

why the fuck couldn't i make this work? no one has ever treated me so well in my entire life. but i wasn't in love with him.

i can't stop crying.

what the hell am i doing.