07.18.05 6:32 pm

for not having any real vacation plans all summer long, my schedule is awfully full right now. i'm trying not to stress about it, but i'm the momma of stress, so of course it's taking it's toll.

the kitchen sink is full of week-old dishes, the litter box has been neglected, which prompts alphonse to demand more outtings outside (to which i guiltily oblige), clean clothes are piled in a wrinkly heap on top of unpacked boxes next to my unmade bed - the casualty of my every morning wardrobe crisis...

this weekend is the wedding of my niece (my ex's niece, to be exact, but i'm still very close to this sector of his family). it's to be a big ol' garden picnic shindig, lasting late into the evening and ending in a barn dance back at sis-n-law loretta's. the ex-in-laws are coming out of the woodwork for this thing - most of whom i have not seen in at least five years.

this, of course, has prompted me to take critical scrutiny of my life, body, weight, hair, oh pretty much everything. and of course all falls short of being remotely close to where i'd like to be.

my weight, for all of my inconsistent dieting tangents, remains stubbornly and disappointingly high.

my hair, which i cut off a few months ago, to rave reviews, has now grown out into a mess of formless shoulder-length frizz.

my house, as described above, has that lived-in, neglected transient chaos. which is not hard to do in such a tiny space.

crap, i'm late for my 2nd attempt at catching the bus.

off to go clothes shopping for the umpteenth time for the perfect something to wear for this damned wedding.

goddamnit to hell.

happy summer, all :)