08.05.05 9:25 pm

august is not going well.

what started as crap has escalated into fucking craptacular in a matter of a few days.

so the car, which broke down last weekend, has been sitting in front of my house since saturday. apparently some ass decided it would look better without the driver side window and took a crowbar to it a couple days ago. and to finish off my week, the entire car is now missing from the curb, towed courtesy of the ever-thoughtful city of seattle for being more than six inches from the curb.

what. the. fuck.

no note, no warning, no nothing. so of course i thought the car had been stolen in broad daylight while i was at work today. silly me.

i don't have the energy for this.

i don't have the money for this.

if i had money in the first place, all of this would have been avoided. i would have been able to afford towing the car over the weekend to a mechanic and paying for the car surgery. it would not have been a sitting duck for some fucked up vandal. it would not have been an obvious target for the city of seattle to get it off the street.

i talked to a neighbor who tried to stop the tow-truck from taking the car, and she agreed with me that the car was parked sufficiently close to the curb.

i have no money. have i mentioned that yet?

i guess i need to start selling things off.

i can't seem to stop crying tonight.
when my friend darren called me tonight, he said he thought someone had died. so yeah, i suppose i could be over-reacting, but this is exactly the kind of thing that makes me feel so completely alone and inadequate as a human being.

stop the world. i want to get off.